"Almost here and more to think about"

Criminal Instinct is nearly here…

I have my first digital copy. I have an ISBN.

I almost can’t believe it.

I’m extremely thrilled and nervous at the same time. Thrilled after years of hard work, this novel is finally going to be published, and nervous because Criminal Instinct is my debut into adult fiction and my very first book that I completed. I believe I rewrote CI twice followed by 2 major edits with professionals.

I feel like I’ve known my characters for years and they finally get to meet readers. Some will enjoy Ana and Jonas’s story, some will not. This is the kind of thought process I always prepare myself for when a new book goes out into the world.

But one thing I can’t forget is how much work it is to write and complete a novel. Readers who are not writers, sometimes don’t realize how much mental power goes into writing.

One thing I try not to forget is that writing is an amazing gift to be cherished. Because after a tough year and a half that I’ve been writing, I haven’t completed another book. I have about 5 partials and 3 of them were rejected in a way that made me feel I wasn’t a very good storyteller.

And I sit here and look at each of them and wonder which one will be good enough? Which one will take me away till the very end? In my mind they each have potential. But my confidence has not been the same, I think.

I want to get past the worry and grasp again that feeling of writing for my enjoyment. That writing for entertainment. Writing for me.

I’m hoping the release of Criminal Instinct will help me find that feeling again.

We’ll soon see…

Have a great weekend, Everyone. :)

~Kelly